Note to self: ☁

Lately, I have been feeling rather... alone and helpless. Don't get me wrong, I have truckloads of fun at school and everyone's been closer than ever. But after school... that's when the loneliness start to get to me. Maybe it's the stress of my upcoming assessment or that I am always awake at unearthly hours.. People who I used to be close to seem to be fading away, busy with their own lives. And sadly, some even have their own best friends. I find myself feeling left out a lot. It's a crappy feeling and I hate it. But at the same time, I can't expect people to be there for me all of the time. I guess I feel cheated because if I can readily be there for them, why can't they do the same for me? Oh well. If these people don't put in the effort, why should I? And that is why I have been constantly reminding myself this: "BE A CLOUD". It sounds silly but I like the sound of it. Joasseph told me that years ago (he was surprised I still remembered it). And yes, I shall do just that. Be a cute fluffy cloud. Just go with the flow, be carefree, stop stressing about everything and enjoy life.